Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Warning-Serious and Thought-Provoking Post Ahead...

Sometimes, I worry about my "character."

Sure, I can be a caring person. I'm a good citizen. I respect most people. Well, that last one isn't always true, but I am respectFUL.

I don't know what I'm trying to say here... or even what I'm trying to learn about myself. Maybe it's about integrity. Do I always act with integrity? Do I make decisions based on what I believe to be right? I'm not sure I can answer that question with the response I WANT to provide.

And that's bothering me a little right now.

7 comments:

3carnations said...

I think of that just about everyday when I spend some time looking at blogs at a place that does not pay me to be looking at blogs. It bothers me. Yet the next day I do it again.

Lara said...

Oh, honey. I don't think any of us act with integrity all the time, and that's what makes us human and delightful. Once, when my husband and I were arguing (about the fact that I'd had four glasses of wine before attending a wake, and he acted worried about how I would act, although I didn't act the slightest bit disrespectful of the situation...hi, care to join the argument? sorry for the TMI, but anyway...) I found myself saying, "Well, if you wanted to marry someone who acts APPROPRIATELY all the time, you married the WRONG GIRL." And I meant every word of it. He later apologized, and all was well, but...well, I don't know what point I'm trying to make.

Jen @ J&J Acres said...

I agree with 3carnations. Work doesn't pay me to look at blogs and I feel bad when I do it. But I do it the next day. It's like I'm addicted.

lizgwiz said...

I think the fact that you're worried about whether you have integrity probably means that you do. :)

Stinkypaw said...

Can't always be perfect... give yourself a break, I'm sure you do the best you can what what you have.

wire said...

Well i'm just impressed that you asked the question! I guess the response is where we grow (or attempt to anyway!).

don't call me MA'AM said...

3car: I can even justify blogging while at work, as it qualifies "somewhat" as R&D...really.

lara: well, I'm definitely human, but not always delightful. :-)

jen: so, are you saying we need an intervention? haha

liz: that's exactly what I was hoping.

stinkypaw: sometimes, I'm not so sure I am doing my best. Sometimes, I think I'm just doing enough to get by... and that's not like me at all.

wire: but if I ask the question, but don't act any differently, that's bad... right?