Monday, February 12, 2007

Not My Greatest Inspiration...


This is me today... dark circles were added (or at least I attempted to add them).

For some reason last night, I was unable to sleep for more than 20 minutes at a time. Then I would awaken, either in pain or completely restless, and toss around in bed for the next hour or so.

I feel like Al Pacino in Insomnia today... and Robin Williams is tap-dancing on my head, proving that even a funny guy can be a really scary guy in the right movie.

But at least I look like hell today. Gah.

I have NO clue what happened last night. I don't feel extremely anxious about anything, I don't think.

Oh, and the nightmares... the nightmares! I don't even want to recount them... they were that scary. One minor scene that I will share though was some guy I totally detest sitting next to me at a restaurant and telling me, "I love you. I really do. I really, really like you, too. I love you. Did you hear me? I love you." I woke up stifling a scream.

I didn't eat anything bad before bed... no spicy or extremely fatty foods. Just one scrambled egg, one English muffin with a little pumpkin butter, and a glass of milk. That was my dinner at 8:30. I was in bed by 10:30. Usually crazy food combinations don't even have an effect on my dreams... and even if they did, that dinner was far from being crazy. Right?

So, is my subconcious self trying to tell me something? Or does it just really, really hate me so much that it's messing with my precious, precious sleep?

Insomnia might be an inspiration to some, but not for me. It just makes me grumpy. GrumpIER. Like I need help with THAT!

6 comments:

-R- said...

Hmm... that is very weird.

More importantly, where did you find the pumpkin butter?

don't call me MA'AM said...

-r-: The pumpkin butter is from the Amana Colonies in Iowa... the same Amana group that used to make all the household appliances.

It is out-of-this-world yummy!

goldennib said...

I have been have very disturbing dreams lately, too, and no idea where they are coming from or why I'm having them. And since my dreams are always so vivid anyway, I wake up exhausted. I hate having my sleep disturbed, too. Makes for a very cranky Nessa.

lizgwiz said...

I hate that kind of night. It's like you get stuck in a bad dream cycle and the only way to end it is just to get up. The good thing is, for me, the next night I usually sleep really well.

don't call me MA'AM said...

goldennib: I hear that. I'm so cranky, it's pathetic.

lizgwiz: maybe that's what it was. I still had very weird dreams this past night, but not bad ones. And I do think I slept better than the night before, but that wasn't too difficult.

-R- said...

Dang it! I have a blanket from the Amana Colonies, but no pumpkin butter. Aargh!